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  1. 4 points
    It's Day 2 and I'm blown away by how crummy I feel and how I got here. Let's just say that I have no "happy place" right now. It would seem that 32 years ago, when I was working shoveling horse pooh at a local barn, that little pitch of "hey try this kid," wouldn't still be haunting me. I was only 11, but it was the cool thing to do down at the stables. Then I decided to buy some off the other kids hanging around the stable. Apple brick it was. Pretty lousy stuff, but man did I look cool. I started buying it at Revco with my pooh shoveling cash. They and UST were very happy with my money. Hawken was next, then Skoal, and then I became the coolest kid when I switched over to Cope while at church camp (kinda funny). Man what a great buzz Cope delivered. The hooks were so deep now, but I didn't care because I didn't know that I was truly hooked! Well now I care and have cared over and over, but I've committed to myself this time vs others. I committed that this stupid little can will not dictate me anymore. I will stop at any corner store now (not just the one that always has the best date), I will not apologize to my two sons for "eating dirt" as we call it, I will not freak out if I finish my can before I go to sleep, I will not carry empty cans through security check-in so I can be secretive when I dip on the plane, I will not care if I have that window seat which helps hide it, I will not have to sneak away at my in-laws house, I will not have to do all if this and other stupid behaviors ever again....... I will not give up! The tobacco companies owe all of us an apology and some big fat checks. 365 days x 32 years x 1.5 cans per day average x $5ish average over the years = about $90,000 without adding interest, add on the dental work, commanded behavior, health risks, and how hacked off this makes me. These guys knew that hooking us as kids was a win for them and a huge loss for us. I'm really mad at them and at me for not being tough enough to beat that nicotine knife. The only good thing right now is that I feel better about myself and know my boys can tell how bad this stuff is. I doubt they will ever try nicotine and I pray they don't. Man a dip would be great right about now........ It ain't gonna happen though!
  2. 3 points
    5400+ days quit. 15 years into a quit that I never thought would ever begin. QuitSmokeless.org saved mine and many other lives. Simple: you quit, you post, you succeed. That was my path. Not everyone follows that same path, that is why I keep coming back here. Success is possible and the first step is putting down the can. I found this site 2 days after i put the can down. Sweat was running down my forehead and I was ready to cave. I typed into Yahoo, "help quitting smokeless tobacco" and my cry for help was answered with Matt Van Wycks website and life saving buoy. To those out there struggling, trying to quit....i was in your shoes..as difficult as it may seem, it is simple in execution: Dont dip. Wake up. Dont dip. Repeat for 5400 days. Good luck fellow quitters!
  3. 3 points
    Rage Room is back open. Enter at your own risk as this is not a safe space.
  4. 3 points
    I was just thinking, different ways I try to rationalize and come up with excuses for having a dip. I could go to the store anytime and buy a can, I have been doing it for years and my teeth are still good. I have a beautiful wife. I don't have cancer. I know guys who have done it way longer than me who don't have cancer. Here in washington you can pay $6 to $9 per can but you can get cans on the reservation for just $2. Just one more can is not gonna kill me, or one more log, or one more week, month, year..... My grandfather died when I was 6 because he smoked tobacco. My parents did an excellent job teaching me about the dangers of smoking, I have never smoked. Then I think about my twin sons who are about to be born. You can be sure they will know the dangers and sorrows that smokeless tobacco can cause. It puts in perspective how the people who love me don't want me using and how hard I will work to teach my boys the dangers of tobacco and discourage them using.... so.... I guess its pretty important I quit for good
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