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Fish76

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  1. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Quitters Fish - 140 Just doing the random check-in and staying strong. Cravings about every 3 days...and that ain't bad. NDT
  2. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Posted 11 February 2017 - 03:39 PM Feb 21, 2017 Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Quitters Fish - 111 I've been on a 2-week vacation in celebration of hitting the 100-day mark. Now that I'm back, I am fighting a craving, but I'll get through. Thanks to the people on this site that helped me through times like this. Supporters
  3. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Feb 8, 2017 Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Quitters - sign here: Fish 76 - 98 days. Seems amazing to me at this point. Only really having a craving every other day or so, and it's fleeting. Glad I can think to this site and these check-ins and have something to fall back on for support. Supporters STS - 69: Keep up the great work and thanks for blazing the trail for me. NDT!! jonny - 2767 - NDT! Started your HOF yet? Us quitters and future quitters need you inspiration!
  4. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Feb 2, 2017 Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Quitters - sign here: Rat - Fish - 92 - 8 days to go! I know I've been inconsistent as of late, but I'm hanging with you Rat! Pretty exciting getting to 100! Supporters
  5. Fish76

    Roll Call

    January, 23, 2017 Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Quitters - sign here: Rat - 82 - been sick as a dog for about 5 days now. Fish, glad to see you are still hanging tough. 18 days til we both reach the HOF. Fish - 82 - I just got over the sickness. It absolutely sucked. Not sure how it is where you are, but it's a combo of a bunch of bugs in the Pacific NorthWest that people keep giving back and forth to each other. My 4th grader got it and gave it to me, then the high schooler got it and gave it back to me and the middle schooler. And then the 7th grader gave it back to me.... It was comical. Damn near 2 weeks before I got "over" it... Supporters Benpitt - 132: bustin' out another day of quit with you! jonny - 2751 - NDT! I've been sick for nearly four weeks! Heck of a lot worse with cat-shit in my lips!
  6. Fish76

    Roll Call

    January, 22, 2017 Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Quitters - sign here: Fish 76 - 81 - Sorry Rat.... I'm here. Still going strong and just got a brand new reel for the upcoming salmon season last night with the money I've been saving from not dipping. It's weird, I blinked and then there was $400... I was a can-a-day guy in Seattle (which is an $8+/can market...oh how I miss the south), so before I knew it, there was some real money. I got a new reel and a new fish finder for my kayak. Sorry about being sketchy in getting on here. We're swamped at work. I do video analytics software, meaning I can get you the data from your video content, whatever it is. We've just landed a contract with the MLB, so I've been working my nuts off trying to get all these cats in a herd. It's kinda sucked and I've spent 80+ hours a week in front of a screen doing what I used to call "dip work". At the end of all that, I've been pretty eager to not look at another screen. I really do think I kicked this habit for good though and I'll keep coming on here to sign in when, especially when, the cravings hit. Thanks for the support man. And to Johnny yesterday...we are only two that made it in this group. I'm content to call it the Rat and Fish show. We're what's left from 6-7 guys that started with us, as best as I can remember. Supporters
  7. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Monday, January 9, 2016 Quitters - sign here: Rat 68 - Cold weekend hunting. Minus 1 on Saturday climbing into the stand. Sat all day and only saw a possum. Done for the year. Fish - 68 - Took to the garage to escape the cold here. Family got me a new kayak for Christmas, so I've got plenty of indoors customization to get into. All dip free. It's amazing how much more productive I am when I'm not hovering near the trash can so I have a spitter handy. Supporters Benpitt - 118: nice weekend action here!
  8. Fish76

    Healthy Respect, and Fear

    Funny story, I had a mini freak-out the other night. But I stayed strong though the ordeal, and only got a little panicked, but for good reason. I guess I need to mention two things (maybe 3) before telling the story, so I'll just start with those... 1) If you've read my other blog entries, you know I'm the kind of dipper that's one pinch away from a can-a-day habit. During the course of this quit I've realized that. Up until now, the two times I've tried to "quit" have really been me going through and substituting one form of nicotine for another while I pat the hell out of my own back about how tough quitting is. I'm just that kind of dipper. It's a part of me and it will always be. So, if I want this quit to last, there can be no exceptions. No cigars with the guys I was deployed with during reunions. No cigarettes with friends on summer Seattle nights down at the bars. I can drink, but I just can't have any nicotine. 2) My family and I go on one skiing/snowboarding trip each year to my wife's tiny hometown in Northeastern Washington over the long weekend in January. The kids have fun. My wife and I have fun. It happens one time annually, so the equipment doesn't get a big workout but once a year. I board with a small backpack so that I have hand warmers and chapstick and stuff for the kids. It stays in the A-bag I have my other boarding stuff in and it only comes out for air at this time every year. 2.5) My wife travels for work sometimes and she was gone last Thursday night. So, there I was. Trying to be the good dad and get my own shit together before dogging all the kids to make sure they had hats and gloves and everything the needed for the ski trip next weekend. I keep all my equipment/clothing in one of my big military bags that can hold a surprisingly large amount of stuff. I was going through it making sure that I still had enough of everything and that all was up to date (enough bandaids, motrin, emergency vials of whiskey, etc.) and I found my boarding backpack. Just a small Camelback that my unit got for us all a long time ago that fits pretty well under my coat. It can carry everything I need on the slopes for a day. As I pulled it out of the A-bag, the backpack hit my helmet and made a sound. A solid, but metallic sound. A "clink" and a "thump" at the same time. It could only be one thing. Last season, I had always kept an emergency can of dip in the iPod pocket of this backpack just to make damn sure I wouldn't be stuck without a stash. I found last year's sealed stash last Thursday. My wife was out of town, so the self-discipline to do what needed to be done was entirely up to me. I didn't care that it was expired for 9 months. I mean, how healthy is that shit to begin with??? Does it need an expiration date? Anyway, I unzipped the compartment and a pristine maroon can of Skoal long cut straight slid out into my hand just perfectly. I grabbed the can in the habitual grip, gave it a thump with my finger and a well-practiced flick of the wrist. It sounded...perfect. I can still hear the paper seal tearing as I slid my fingernail around the familiar "open here to kill yourself slowly...painfully...and without any control" groove and popped off the lid. I held it up to my nose thinking that it would smell bad...that I wouldn't like it. I know reformed smokers who say that they now can't stand the smell of cigarette smoke. I think those guys are effing liars. It was glorious. My eyes were slightly watering as was my mouth. And I freaked out a bit. I hadn't yet crossed the line into "nobody will know or find out" land, but I didn't want to get there. I immediately bolted for the bathroom. There was no fucking way I could ever throw this can away. I'd be digging that bitch out of the trash soon enough. It wouldn't matter if it were buried under used kitty litter, the can is sealed...it's probably fine. More drastic measures had to happen. I flushed the contents. Three times. Then, took the empty can to the sink and washed both the can and the lid out with soap, then put them back together, walked back to my 2nd floor bedroom window, and flung the empty can into the 4-degree night. If I had the damn thing in my room, there's a chance I would have smelled it for two hours before finally breaking down and heading to the store for another can and a refill for my Xyban...(which worked for me, by the way, for those of you thinking about using it). After that, I was satisfied at my exorcism of demons put on this earth to haunt me and was able to go back to what I was doing...getting my shit ready to take my family skiing. The point of the story is this: cravings make zero sense. We all have to be strong and ever ready to take whatever drastic measures are required to violently stomp down cravings whenever they appear. I am at 66 days quit today. So I had been quit for 64 days when I found that year-old can in my snowboarding bag. I hadn't had as much as a single thought about dip for 72 hours. My last minor craving was when my wife went to the airport on Tuesday for her trip. Other then thinking in good fun, "She'll never catch my slip-up now" I didn't have a single thought about dip from that day until Thursday night at 11PM. But when it hit, it brought a fucking sledge. But, I fought back. I fought back in a crazy "I'm going to show up to your door with a hacksaw and a bag of lime" kind of way, but that's what it takes with this addiction for me. I can't pull any punches. I have to do whatever it takes. I'm not giving up on my quit. I'm proud of my 66 days, even though it may not sound like much to some of the guys on here. One day, it'll be 660 days, then 6600. And that won't change what I'm going though now and it won't cheapen my current fight later. I have a healthy respect for the strength of my addition...and I'm damn sure afraid of it. I'm not going to assume I have a craving beat, and I'm not taking chances. We're all in this together, but it's an individual struggle that we all must fight. I'm going to keep going overboard, however crazy/funny/absurd the actions I take to keep the quit alive. I'm done dipping, but dip will never be done with me. I know that about myself and I fight that every day. You can do that too.
  9. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Saturday, January 7, 2016 Quitters - sign here: Fish - 66 - Nice round number. Congrats to us all! Supporters STS - 38: I'm gonna stay quit with you today. NDT!! chill -2242- I ain't gonna be dippin' today. I Promise.
  10. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Tuesday, January 3, 2016 Quitters - sign here: Rat - 62 - Winter Classic game was the best hockey event that I have ever been to. Fish - 62 - I was really enjoying the USC game last night too! It's been a good holiday for sport. Supporters Benpitt - 112: sounds rad! way to stay quit!
  11. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Rat - 60. Hungover but dip free. Not the worst start to a new year. Fish - 60. Right there with you. Happy to have proven I can enjoy a bottle of whiskey and not cave to nicotine.
  12. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Monday, December 26, 2016 Quitters - sign here: Fish76 - 54 - Just back from a weeklong getaway. Family and friends, but no internet or (more importantly) dip. Wasn't overly-tempted at all, which came as a surprise. Glad I have this forum to think about if the nic-bitch comes calling. Thanks fellas. Merry Christmas to you all! Supporters
  13. Fish76

    Roll Call

    If you quit between 11/21/2016 - 12/21/2016 this is your quit group. To join this group all you have to do is quit dipping and post Roll Call How to Post Roll Call Get the Contract to Give Up Print it out and carry it in your wallet Click Here for a room to exchange phone numbers. Accountability is key! Thursday, December 15, 2016 Quitters - sign here: STS - 15: No Dip Today! BLG - 11 - $55: Double nickels. Another milestone. ODAAT. Thinking of it less. And the bad dreams of dipping are on their way. About another week or two. You guys know what I'm talking about. NDT Supporters: Benpitt - 93: dip-free with the March crew today! jeffro - 2117 - I foresee great HOF speeches from these two gents...quitting with March 2017 bflem-427- dip dreams, yep they suck. power thru. ndt with you fine gents! Fish - 43 - keep it up guys. It gets easier, I promise.
  14. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Thursday, December 15, 2016 Quitters - sign here: Rat 41 - 43 cruising on Fish76 - 43 - Feeling better and better by the day... Workouts kicking in and I'm far less tired than I was last week. Supporters Stockchart 2234 Stay quit today by posting up and helping someone else stay quit Benpitt - 93: I'm with it!
  15. Fish76

    Roll Call

    Wednesday, December 14, 2016 Quitters - sign here: Rat 41 - 42 NDT for me Fish76 - 42 Holding strong. NDT! Supporters Benpitt - 92: got your backs guys! Rat, that 1930 is the shit!
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