at 15 my friends and I got curious about tobacco. My dad was a smoker, most of my friends parents smoked. No one chewed tobbaco though. We got some sKoal bandits and the rest is history. I only chewed every once in a while and then graduated to smoking at 16. I smoked for about 5 years and then quit after getting tired of waking up with a sore throat and no desire to smoke any more. I did no type of nicotine until about 25 when I would occasionally have a cigar with friends. The need for nicotine was great but smoking cigars was too smelly so I went back to dipping SKoal mint. On and off for the past 10-14 years I would start and then quit. Sometimes for a year or longer. Most recently, in the past couple years I have solely used Swedish Snus which is similar to a bandit. I don’t like that I can’t quit. I know it’s not healthy. This is really my only vice. I don’t drink much any more as I approach 40 my goals have been to promote a healthier life style by eating better and exercising 5 plus days a week. Snus seems to help me focus at work. I can keep it in my upper lip, don’t have to spit as it’s a spotless type of tobacco but I wonder what it’s doing to my intestinal tract and my artieries. I have gotten to the place where I despise th stuff but keep grabbing for the can day after day. I have tried tooth picks, gum, the fake stuff, and candy, I have tried everything. Most recently I have been reading how mindfulness can help break addiction. So for the past week I have done some of the practices mentioned in mindfulness so that I can begin the break the enchantment I have with nicotine. It’s made some progress, I haven’t quit yet but as I write this Christmas is tomorrow and I am planning on giving myself the best Christmas present anyone could give their self with this addiction and that’s to quit. Most recently I have made it about a week. Foggy headed almost the whole time and then I let my guard down and caved. Nothing quit like failure that makes it feel impossible to quit. I’m gonna come back here every day to update my progress and to read what some of you guys are going through. I need something to be accountable to and the more I read the more I feel this is the right way to be accountable. Anyone know of anything to do about the fog? I work in a pretty demanding job in the financial industry that really requires some focus at times. Thanks you all for any suggestions and I hope to be a success so I can post here in 100 days.