As i sit here writting and watching my kids run in and out of the room all I can think about is dip. This will be the 2nd or 3rd time I have quit. I started dipping 14 years ago in the Navy, everyone dipped because you couldn't smoke. I quit last year at the same time but didn't make it thru the 100 day mark, the addiction took over. Funny how I can recall the thought that was going thru my head when I put the money on the counter and walked out with that can, the guilt that I was feeling when I put the dip in my cheek. That all went away with in afew moments.
I feel as if there is something wrong with me, that i'm the only one that feels like I argue with myself about buying a can. Right now i'm looking for a loop hole in this process to justify going to the store and buying a can I sat in line a Walmart buying a fan, and was so close to buying a can, i changed lanes at the last moment and didn't. But the argument went on all night WITH MYSELF. [b]"I could go to the store and get a can" "why am I quitting, i know i won't make it" "what will I do next week at work with out dip" and everyother excuse that my foggy mind can drum up. This will be a very long process but i feel confident that I will one day be free of this monster.

The Nicotine Slave Master (NSM) is demanding that you put your shackles back on. We've all had the same conversation. When that trick doesn't work on you any more, the NSM will lie to you about what a great friend it is. And after you have beat it into the ground and is no longer in control of your life, it will again lie sweetly that just one, for old time's sake, won't hurt. Don't listen to any of those lies.

I started dipping fulltime in the Navy too, only that was 30 years before I manned up and began this journey back to freedom in 2006. I won't lie to you, it's going to be very rough the first week and you'll have triggers after that which will try your resolve. But you CAN beat this thing if you want it and if you firmly Close The Door on dip.

One crave, one hour, one day at a time to FREEDOM.

Euty ~ Day 1,406 nicotine-FREE