Today has sucked big time. All I have done all day long is crave tobacco. I tried something that someone told me about on this site and it works pretty good. It does not take my cravings away but it gives me somthing to hold in my mouth and it sort of feels like I have snuff in my mouth. I take a cotton ball and soak it in mouthwash and then put it where I would normally hold my dip. I used to dip witergreen tobacco anyway so it sort of helps. My mind has been playing some awful tricks on me today. It is like my mind and body are trying to convince me to get a fix. I have hung tough though. I went to the chat room earlier and one of the guys there suggested trying to use coffee as snuff. I am doing that now. I took one of my old snuff cans and washed it out. I filled it with coffee grounds. So it is sort of like my mind is so used to going and opening the can and getting a dip that now I have a can I can open and get a dip but it will be coffee instead of snuff. I may not sleep a wink from the cafeine in the coffee but it is better than dying with cancer. I have hunkered down now and am ready for day 2. My main problem right now is cravings, trouble thinking, and irritabillity. my wife can hardly stand me right now. Well, that is day one and it has been a bitch. I am sure day 2 will not be much better. If I ever get off this shit I will never take another dip.
djchris71
