Woke up this morning and didn't have a strong craving for dip. Last night was really tough about 11 pm. I didn't go to work today so I could stay busy. I am going to paint and get some stuff done around the house.
I feel great after a good workout. On the way home I got some Smokey Moutain from Giant Eagle. It actually isn't that bad. Much better then the Bacoff product or Mint Snuff stuff. I feel like I am kind of cheating with the Nic Free stuff; however, I need to have something.
I am bouncing off the wall trying to quit this habit. I was having really bad cravings at work and found this website. So far it is keeping me busy.
Right now I feel terrible. I have a splitting headache, I am tired, and really grouchy. I also am really twitchy or nervous all of a sudden. Day #2 seems much worse then Day #1. I need to call my wife and get some support.
I thought I would start a blog to document my successes and struggles at quitting tobacco. Actually this is my first ever blog. I'm a very reserved person, and I usually don't open up much to people. But, I thought that now would be as good as ever, especially since I'm starting on a pretty rough journey. I guess I'll start at the beginning. I started dipping back in 1998 when I was in high school. I worked on a dairy farm, and that made for some pretty long days. I started dipping to giv
What a day. Picked up clearing papers, ran all like the proverbial chicken. Had a job interview today; that was a first without Copenhagen. Drive on. I don't have to stay away from dip next month or even tomorrow - I only have to do it now, just for today. Drive on.
Day 26, overall not bad. I am at the point where I really miss tacking a dip. The physical part is nowhere near as strong, the urges still come, and the mind games that just one dip is okay, pass through my head on a regular basis. Today has been a victory for me. I am at work with two guys who chew, They chew a lot. They have been throwing a can at me all day long. I have come too far. I have worked to hard. My wife and kids are so proud of me. I think that misery loves company and they are too
The Chantix is causing pretty terrible sleep disturbances. I'll stay with it for now. Say, 30 days, see if it does anything for the psychological problem. If it doesn't, Chantix is going to have to go. I can't go to school jumping out of bed wide awake at 1 in the morning.
Today I finally started the smoking/tobacco cessation program, and received my prescription for Chantix. I'm interested to see what the Chantix does from a purely academic point of view. 45 days into this, the physical craving is no longer a problem. Its the psychological addiction that is in fact more unpleasant than the physical addiction was. Whether or not Chantix will help with that remains to be seen. But with it available I see no reason not to take it. Anything that represents a step awa
Day 21. Things have gotten easier, but I still have strong cravings at times. Stress does not help. But the pain is not as bad, the chemical withdrawal seems not be as strong. I think the mental aspect is playing with me right now. Pretty proud to go 21 days with no chew. One day at time is the way to go. Your mind is a powerful tool and can also be your worst enemy. This is the definition of mental toughness.
I worked at the firehouse this week with two heavy chewers. That sucked, but I
My first quit came as a shock to me. It was nothing I planned. I woke up without a strong craving one morning and said to myself I'm not going to dip the rest of the day and if I can get through the first day, then I'll quit. I did really well and quit for a few months. My brain later told me I was cured and that one dip a day would not kill me but would be even more enjoyable than dipping throughout the day. That one dip turned into 1 can, 1 roll, 1 year, 2....3....4 etc...
Fast forward an
It has been 12 days since my last dip. I can't believe this is happening. Everyday has a very tough moment, but they are getting easier. Sleeping at night is not as bad, but I still wake up for no reason feeling restless. My lip feels great and I feel proud. This is possible, but it takes a lot strength. at times very tiring. At 10 days I noticed a big physical difference. For me the actual physical withdrawals began to subside. The mental aspect of it is still strong for me. I constantly have t
Earlier today I drove 20 miles down I-81 just to spend money on some fake dip in a can. It's called Hooch and I bought a classic flavor and mint and they were out of wintergreen and it appears they won't be running out of cherry flavor anytime soon. Ok, I've pulled out wet grass stuck underneath my lawnmower that looked more appealing. And damn...this stuff turns your fingers, fingernails, lips and teeth black. It's like joke dip. Damn, don't touch anything after putting this stuff in your lip.
This morning began with a pounding headache that I know taking a dip would cure but opted for some Tylenol instead. I think my body is doing some really weird stuff to try and get some nicotine back into my system. Head aches, dry mouth, lack of concentration etc...all can be fixed by just one little dip. Having quit once before I know that one dip will turn into several more years of addiction so I can't have even one. Not now and not ever.
Like any addiction mine slowly crept up on me. Du
Today is my 5th day without allowing any nicotine in my system. I'm angry, moody and today I left work early because I was just too uptight to deal with people. If I would've had some dip on me, I would've cave in. I guess after 25 years a habit like this is not going to go quietly. I thought about using some nicotine patches or some gum but I said screw that. The addict part of me has caused me a lot of misery and money and I'm punishing the bastard and it hurts so good.
I have been clean for 54 days now. Don't Do What I Did (DDWID) and start up again. Not worth it. All I got was sh*t breath, sore lip, sour stomach, and headaches.
I feel much better now. I eat a little bit more, I work out a little bit more, I drink a little bit more (Black and Tan's), and I give myself "time-outs".
Recently sailed through some tough moments with NO chew.
I stayed away from this site but recieved a timely message from "brovro81" as I hit my 1/2 way point t
Day 7 went pretty well. still sick to my stomache, and having a chew crosses my mind constantly. I'm at work watching 50% of the firefighters chew today. Really tough but really proud of myself for not caving in.
Are the night chills, with nausea common?? Trouble sleeping while feeling like shit/ Normal?
Hanging tough. Come on Day 8.
30 days and a thousand nights. The completion of thirty days has seen some relief. Still can't sit still and not think about a dip, but the desire is easier to dismiss. Only occasionally do I feel that deep longing for copenhagen. Mostly it is just in the form of an annoying distraction. But at the end of the month I do have an appointment with the smoking cessation class here on post, which may bring a subscription to Chantix. Any insurance is better than none. We've done it without drugs up un
Working today, just doesn't feel right being on a fire engine without a phat nug. Still feeling sick to my stomache. I'm staying positive. Every now and then I get this strong urge to chew, it seems like it comes in waves.
I will not chew today. Say it with me.
So a month of not dipping is coming to an end. It has been most unpleasant. Not the lack of dipping - that would have been merely uncomfortable. The emotions that have been masked by relentless, aggressive tobacco use are revealing, to say the least. It is hardly an original observation that to recover from addiction requires that a person be prepared to change only one thing - everything. It is likely that tobacco will require the greatest changes of all. To that end I will take steps to effect