I really appreciate the Cafe, and wish more people would put in little tidbits. I know it's a bit hypocritical to write a blog about the Cafe when I could have posted in the Cafe itself, but it's something I wanted to capture in the blog. Just going through those postings helps me go through and gain perspective and appreciation of what this website is about. I just beat a crave that has been lingering for hours by leaning on the writings of men who've come before me and didn't know that they would give me strength. It's Day 4 for me today, so I know I don't have much perspective as this is my first real attempt at quitting and I've had that shit in my mouth constantly for 30 years. 30 years. Writing it out makes it sound so real. To say it it doesn't carry the same weight as seeing it written. I've dipped a long time. When I didn't, I replaced the Nic Bitch's calls with something. Now, there's a heaping helping of "Go Fuck Yourself" whenever I feel the urge rising. I've never had that strength before. It's nice seeing this side of it. I have no idea who or what I'm going to be without dip, but at least now I'm excited to see what that's like. I've been afraid of it up to now. Holding onto my roots and keeping me grounded to the blue-collar background I'm so fiercely proud of is no reason to stay in a choke chain forever. I don't need nicotine. I need time and distance. I'm excited for perspective. I'm glad I've got you guys. I appreciate the Cafe and the Shoutouts. Keep posting guys. It helps us all.