I quit Copenhagen on November 27th, 2016.
Today is November 30th, 2016.
I'm feeling much better today with everything. This has become a profoundly testing and religious experience for me - full of divine intervention.
I've heard stories of death, heartache, extreme strife, pain and resiliency. These stories have barged into my life randomly, without reference and with incredible application.
I can't explain this, but I must continue to run with it. I'm beginning to not have the physiological urge to want to dip every 10-15 seconds... it is starting to fade by the opposing good feeling and thought of breaking free from this addiction.
My bottom lip is continuing to twitch every 30 seconds or so throughout the day. I have to physically intervene for it to stop. It is a reminder to me of how terrible I've been to myself and my oral health by choosing to dip Copenhagen for the last 10 years.
I'm beginning to be able to focus on work holistically again. I can hold a train of thought and conversation without feeling sorry for myself and/or thinking about dip.
Last night was awful, again. I woke up every hour on the hour until 0300AM. I woke up tonguing my gums and bottom lip, dreaming/thinking about dip.
I'm very much looking forward to the physiological symptoms to pass. Once I get through this phase, it will be an attempt to forget.
Thankful for toothpicks and gum right now.