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  1. Posted the below at about day 160 or so, now at 640, but still like to read every once in while, maybe it will help someone out there look at the time we spend on this site in a different light, sure helps me stay focused...Hawesy A buddy of mine asked me the other day, you still signing onto that site, didnt you quit like 6 months ago? Cured after 6 months, I wish thats how it works. Im approaching uncharted territory for my quit, getting close to the longest quit that I have ever had. I chewed for almost 30 years and only one time before this quit, had I gone more than a single day without some form of nicotine.that blows my mind. So I guess the question is when have I put in enough time on this site? Obviously there is no right answer, everyone is different, but trying to put into perspective the amount of time that I previously spent in the last 30 years on my addiction getting dip, actually dipping and when I wasnt dipping or getting it, I was usually thinking/worrying or stressing over it. So roughly 70% of my last 30 years was spent doing one of or all the above for my addiction. thats fn sick. As far as the time I spend on this site, signing in, posting, supporting our fellow quitters and keeping myself accountable, probably avg ½ hour or so a day.15 minutes in the morning and 15 minutes at night, give or take..that equates to about 2% of my day! So I went from spending/wasting 70% of my time & life, killing myself & thinking about my addiction, to now spending 2% of my time, keeping myself healthy, keeping myself free, saving money and hopefully helping others to do the same. Really seems like a no brainer to me! So I guess what Im saying is you guys wont be getting rid of me anytime soon. I will continue to spend the 2% of my day to ensure I never go back to losing 70% of my life. Hawesy
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    The Cafe - 2012

    mgc, Phil & Emm are so right, listen to these guys.... reading your post, I felt your pain so I went back to my quit group folder Sept 2011 and found my first post (below) this was 488 days ago, so I know what your going through and also KNOW you can do this!! I never want to forget the feeling I had back then (tired, hopeless and not in control), it is the main reason I have been successful this time. So get into your quit group, keep reading & posting and save your first post, don't forget that feeling and why you will never go back there...you got this brother.......NDT Hawesy Hawesy June 2011 Post "This sucks....this really sucks.. but almost time to get out of the office, definetly not my most productive days at work. Still hard to believe the physical/mental hold this shit has over me….the monster does not want to let go once it has it claws in you, that is for sure….Plan is to try and work out tonight and then read and post as much as I need to, in order to make it through my first day…...let the count down begin…..there has been no nicotine in my body since 9 o'clock last night, 16 hrs down, rest of my life to go...."
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    The Cafe - 2012

    Hawesy - 463 - Thanks to JimmyVV, I took a minute to stop and think about about my quit today.....thats right, I had to stop and think about it. Believe it or not, the memories and daily grind of the quit do go away, slowly but surely. I'm not saying that you should ever let you guard down or think your "cured" , because that is not the case, but it does get much, much easier. And I do think it is important for the newbies to understand this, that it does get better with time, life really can be the same or even better without dip....its not just a line that is said around here to help you through the beginning of your quits! So as I,m facing roughly my 67th straight weekend without dip, I'm just as excited about weekend that I have planned with family, friends, baseball, football and some work around the house that I ever was when I was dipping! Really, I'm even more pumped up because no where in my plans this weekend is the thought of how I should or will quit dipping, starting first thing on Monday......those days of wasted time and stress are long gone thanks to this site and all of you!! Have a great and Dip free weekend......NDT!!!
  4. hawesy

    The Cafe - 2012

    One year ago today that I stumbled on to this site, wasn't convinced at the time that I was ready to give quitting another try after 30 plus years of being an addict., but as I read through the site and posts and saw how this support system worked here, I knew this was my legitimate chance to make a go at finally beating the nic bitch. I read through and came up with a plan on how wean down and picked a date and proudly announced to the site that I was ready and would be quitting in a week or two… That’s when Ohioman challenged me and said why wait…do it tonight, there is no better time than now! You know something he was sooooo right…that was the evening of June 16th, 2011….. the night I took my life back. The night I said F U to the nic bitch and demons that I had been fighting and a prisoner to for so long. Ohioman, If I haven’t said it enough…Thank You….lord knows where I would be today if I waited that 2 weeks to wean down , something tells not here, not with 363 days nic free under my belt, almost $3000 richer and god knows in much better health. If your reading this and thinking about quitting or even not, this is the right place and most importantly as a great quitter and mentor once told me, it is the right time……NOW!! You can do this, I and every other member is sure of this! Thanks to all the members and vet’s for your support over the last 363, not sure how I can ever repay you, but I will be serving cake down in the Sept 2011 (Quit Crew rocks!!!!) ballroom this Sunday for my 1 years b-day,,
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    The Cafe - 2012

    Tying to post in Sept 2011 for the last 2 days here at work and can't do it??... try tonight at home but did want to make sure I sent a shout out to the latest one of our boyzzzz in the QUIT CREW to hit the one year mark, my man Thumbs....way to go brother, you have made us proud!!! What a great feelin gto accomplish a goal and watch yourslef and others hold on to the pledge...lets keep it rolling, no turning back now!! NDT Hawesy 357
  6. hawesy

    The Cafe - 2012

    Hit the 3rd floor yesterday....300 days of freedom..... what a great feeling and a huge sense of accomplishment. I fought the demon for amost 30 years and this is the first time since the Nic bitch put her meat hooks in me, that I'm living my life on my terms. And by no means was it easy but it isn't as hard as you think either!!!! Be part of this site, be part of your quit group and the rest will fall into place, believe me its the most simple but effective plan there is. No need to wait, the sooner you start the sooner you will take back your life......you got this, we are here to help.....no doubt about it!!! Thanks to the entire QSSN Crew and especially the Sept 2011 HOF,,,, the Q.U.I.T. Crew.... you are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  7. hawesy

    The Cafe - 2012

    Wyoming, Thanks!! Just reminiscing about the old days and I don't mean the good old days either. I try not to let myself get to far away from forgetting that feeling in the first week or so, that was a torture I never want to go therough again! Hawesy
  8. hawesy

    The Cafe - 2012

    "This sucks....this really sucks.. but almost time to get out of the office, definetly not my most productive days at work. Still hard to believe the physical/mental hold this shit has over me….the monster does not want to let go once it has it claws in you, that is for sure….Plan is to try and work out tonight and then read and post as much as I need to, in order to make it through my first day…...let the count down begin…..there has been no nicotine in my body since 9 o'clock last night, 16 hrs down, rest of my life to go...." This was 7 months ago, 1st day into my quit, I go back and read the early posts often to remind me what a horrible feeling it was trying to loosen the hold of the monster, I'll never go back and never give back my freedom or sanity for that shit....THANK YOU QSSN Crew for helping find and through to the light! Hawesy 216 and counting!!!
  9. Wishing a safe and happy New Years Eve to the entire quit smokeless crew, we have much to be thankful for! Can't thank each and everyone of you enough for helping me get my freedom back in 2011, feels amazing to start the new year with the chains of addiction off my back. This will and has let me concentrate on those things that are really important to me.....my family and my health! Happy New Year,,,,,Hawesy
  10. A buddy of mine asked me the other day, “you still signing onto that site, didn’t you quit like 6 months ago?” Cured after 6 months, I wish that’s how it works. I’m approaching uncharted territory for my quit, getting close to the longest quit that I have ever had. I chewed for almost 30 years and only one time before this quit, had I gone more than a single day without some form of nicotine….that blows my mind. So I guess the question is when have I put in enough time on this site? Obviously there is no right answer, everyone is different, but trying to put into perspective the amount of time that I previously spent in the last 30 years on my addiction… getting dip, actually dipping and when I wasn’t dipping or getting it, I was usually thinking/worrying or stressing over it. So roughly 70% of my last 30 years was spent doing one of or all the above for my addiction…. that’s f’n sick. As far as the time I spend on this site, signing in, posting, supporting our fellow quitters and keeping myself accountable, probably avg ½ hour or so a day….15 minutes in the morning and 15 minutes at night, give or take…..that equates to about 2% of my day! So I went from spending/wasting 70% of my time & life, killing myself & thinking about my addiction, to now spending 2% of my time, keeping myself healthy, keeping myself free, saving money and hopefully helping others to do the same. Really seems like a no brainer to me! So I guess what I’m saying is you guys won’t be getting rid of me anytime soon. I will continue to spend the 2% of my day to ensure I never go back to losing 70% of my life. Hawesy
  11. Originally I was going to wait to write my HOF, but the more I thought about it, the following things came up that changed my mind: I’m not getting any smarter or wiser (that’s for sure!) Would my HOF be any better at 200….300 ..400 days quit, probably not. After reading through a good portion of HOF’s over the last 4 months, I was really impressed and moved by them and reading them were very instrumental in my quit. I’m writing this HOF to help those who want to quit or stay quit from this hideous habit, like the all of you have helped me over the last 135 days. If by chance, me posting this can help accomplish this for someone else, as it has done for me, why wait another day This is also the least I can do to try and give back to this site and the all of you that have helped me get where I wanted to be…..FREE. And there is no better feeling in the world to live life free from addiction. I spent and still spend a considerable amount of time reading through these threads/posts, it is a great reminder to me why I quit in the first place and why I never will go back to giving up my freedom. I chewed for almost 30 years and tried to quit so many times without success, so why was this time so different? For sure this site was a huge reason…. the accountability of one’s self, the mentoring & know how from the “vets” and the support & true friendship from your HOF class, makes all the difference in the world, there is strength in numbers! But also this time around I have reached the point where I truly knew that going back to dipping/nicotine and thus giving up my freedom was NOT AN OPTION, which has made the whole process a hell of a lot easier and more successful. I’m not saying that there weren’t difficult times, there were, and that’s when I leaned on my HOF crew and vet’s to get me through. But unlike other quits, where I would let the nic bitch think she had a chance or an opening, it was closed right away this time, because I knew going back was not an option. Easy to say I know, but it is the truth and it works. If you eliminate something as an option, you need not spend all your time thinking about it and that’s where you need to get with your quit. How do you eliminate dip as an option? This is what worked for me… Write down the reasons and how you felt when you first quit. Keep this and read it often, never forget that helpless and hopeless feeling you have/had when your not in control of your own life, you’re an addict and your not free, very powerful stuff, don’t forget this! Work this site and be accountable! Be an active participant, post roll each day and support your HOF class as well as other HOF classes. Remind them why dip is no longer an option for you or and should not be for them. Take the time to appreciate those things in life that are important to you and actually add value to your life. Obviously these will be different for each of us, but one thing is for certain, dip will not be on the list for any of us We all know how short life is, don’t waste your time, energy, money and most importantly your health. So if you’re reading this and haven’t quit, QUIT NOW, realize that life is much more rewarding and fulfilling when you have your freedom. Don’t waste anymore of your health, time or money…take your life back, the earlier you do this the better! If you’re reading this and are already quit, I’m proud of you and keep it going, look at the 3 things above that have helped me and I’m sure will help you realize….dip is not an option for us anymore! I would be remiss if I didn’t give a shout out to the Sept 2011 HOF crew (Bear, AZ, Thumbs, Flyer, Ndodge, Robert & Copenomor and the vets (O-Man, JimmyVV, Muddler ) the rest that were instrumental to my quit. For a bunch a folks that I will probably never meet in person, it is amazing the positive impact that you all have had on my life as well as my family’s life and we can’t THANK YOU enough…. Hawesy (Steve)
  12. Mark, Welcome….your in the right place and have made a great decision! Obviously the toughest part is to make and then stick to this decision and you will find that this site is a great help to keep you going in the right direction. I’ve been quit for 54 days, after chewing for almost 30 years, and the support and accountability from this site is a huge reason for this. Keep reading and posting…..you should post roll call in the November HOF, you’ll find that others are and have gone through what your experiencing…there is strength in numbers! You are doing the right thing by you and your family! Hawesy
  13. Welcome back and congrat's....sounds like you’re making some really healthy decisions/choices and none is healthier than to stop killing yourself with dip! You’ll be able to get through this for sure, as far as this site, you have been here before and know how powerful a tool it is… if used. So go into the Oct HOF class and start posting everyday, it will go a long way to help you keep your quit going and your experience will do the same for the other members quit…. it’s a win…win! You have a great opportunity for a second chance, take advantage of it. Will be looking for your post…Hawesy
  14. What a difference a week makes, I feel great, empowered, that I'm not a slave to my addiction! Obviously a long way to go, but sometimes the first steps are the hardest to take and Ohioman....just want to say thank you for pushing me last week to take my step earlier than planned! You da man, if it wasn't for you, I would be preparing my quit for tomorrow and in reality who knows if I would have done it and gone through with this.....first step is the hardest and there a lot things that can come up to make you " do it another day", so thanks again for the challenge and also thanks to my Sept class for challenging and inspiring me each day to continue!! I promise not to get complacent in my quit today or any other day!!
  15. I hear you.....Ohioman, I'm in this for the long haul and will using this site and all of your and everyone else's experience and wisdom to beat this thing and hopefully by posting and posting somemore, someone will learn something from me that may help them in their struggle, this is a very powerful tool!!
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