Great post Peter!
Whenever you feel like venting, bitching or just putting random thoughts out there this is exactly the place for that kind of thing.
We have all been where you are now and we all understand what you are going through. The best decision you have made is to quit and as you already know it's not easy but it is doable especially if you use this site and all of the tools here to help you.
The first thing you need to do is join the newest quit group and post roll call every day promising that you will not dip for that day. One day at a time is how were roll around here!
Your quit group will be the January 2014 group if you start posting roll today. On Friday the February 2014 quit group will be starting. Posting roll every day is the most important thing you can do. It will get easier, I promise!